I was reading Spurgeon's daily reading for today this morning and this is the verse for today. As always, I read this verse again in the Bible. Tears started streaming down my face after I read it a few times and I had no idea why I was crying. Something deep in me was touched by this verse. With my mind's eye, I saw myself as a convalescent patient, being wheeled by God, when He whispered this verse into my ears. Like a child, I did not understand fully what I was told, but emotionally, I got it. His love and forgiveness and acceptance of me enlarged me. I am still struggling to verbalize this understanding.
That was a feeling of warmth... of peace. I knew, emotionally, that I was at peace with Him and myself at that exact moment. I felt I was becoming whole. I felt I could rest. A spring of water wants to flow out of me. I felt I could love genuinely and deeply.
I don't remember what Spurgeon wrote about this verse as clearly now, but God's word I can hear still... "godly sorrow worketh repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret." It's almost like each time when I sin, it's a chance for me to see the true color of me. And this verse tells me, if I truly abhor the evil of sin, I will run to Him for salvation and then be given a new life, instead of kicking myself, because I arrogantly believe I am better than I really am, and believe that if only I would work harder, I could be better. The futile attempt to get out of that entrapment will eventually lead to death by exhaustion and disillusion.
I pray to enjoy this kind of continual repentance until I enter my eternal rest.
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