My Big Head and A Fun Day

I think I really think too much! But I really also like this part of me. And because I know the first sentence really should read as, "People say I think too much." but the second sentence comes from me, I would say... truth be told, I really like this part of me! And THAT'S why I have not changed. See, that's the big head talking.

My day started at 5:40 this morning. Kind of feeling crazy for getting up when it was still dark and walking Beau when the whole world was still sleeping. I almost though I could hear my neighbors breathe in their sleep. As I turn at the corner, I ran into my neighbor Ruben. (So I guess the whole world was not sleeping!) And his two dogs. One great Dane and bulldog mix, (i think) called Tyson, (that name makes me want to laugh... Isn't Tyson some brand of chicken? I know some boxer also named Tyson, but chicken was my first reaction when I was first introduced to him.) The other one is a tiny bichon mix. Both of them had their T-shirt on. Ruben said, "They just woke up, and I don't want them to feel cold." We said bye and went our separate ways. I felt like laughing. Dogs... just woke up... T-shirt to keep warm... somehow, the idea of Tyson and little sister "waking up early" was comical. They are dogs. "Just woke up" is to describe humans. That reminded me of my old neighbor, who told me, "If you want to visit B, you need to wait cuz she is taking a nap." A dog taking a nap? Maybe B has afternoon tea too!

I needed to meet with someone this morning, and as I was driving, I realized I had already "written" numerous research papers about this person in my head. At the time, the papers felt like evidences that lead to a conclusion that this person stands no chance to be rehabilitated. And I felt awful. Almost did not want to continue the drive. Now, some 10 hours later now, I don't even remember my "papers" but had a fun day with myself instead. Interesting internal landscaping that is a totally different reality from the outside world. Had I made decisions based on that "landscaping" I would surely have ruined my day. Thankfully, I didn't not let my big head take charge today. I have learned to be patient with myself. Went to a nursery called "Eden" to cool off and had a heavenly time with myself, picking up some 1-gallon lavender and seeds to grow.

Failed tonight's session according to myself. Said a prayer for myself, asking the Spirit to cover me.

Time to go to bed and let my big head rest.