The strange, (or not so strange) thing is, after I got up and went about my day, the worry didn't seem to be so worth it anymore. Anxiety was gone. Thoughts were remote. In less than 3 hours, I feel like a different person. The same thoughts surrounding that issue are still with me, and I still believe what I was concerned was legitimate. The difference is how I feel.
I was reminded once again, that feelings are ephemeral and can not be trusted. Feelings are precious gift from God too, and feelings are what makes us human. But feelings can be so easily blown out of proportion and feelings can rob you of perspective and entrench you and paralyze you. How nice if we can all keep feelings of equal size. Just the right blend of feelings to make the emotional rainbow beautiful. But with me, sometimes there is too much yellow and sometimes there is too much gray. I can have a lot of red too, and sometimes even a big blob of white. I was feeling black this morning, and alarming orange was flashing too. Went to workout, had breakfast, looked at hummingbirds and the proportion of those colors changed.
I think I am feeling green now. Somewhat healed.
(Also went to HomeDepot to pick a paint color for my kitchen.)
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