And can it be that I should gain?
I remember I once visited an older man who was diagnosed with some cancer and would not live long. Asking visiting a few times, I felt I needed to ask him to receive Jesus as his saviour. He told me, "it's not fair; I have been a good man all my life, and I am dying of cancer now! He is not a fair God, why would I believe in him?" I told him, "No, it's not fair. It's not fair at all!" He looked at me, with a question mark on his face. I told him it's not fair, because why is it that I should gain eternal life when He died for my sin? Why should I gain salvation because he gave up his life for me? I told him it really wasn't fair that all he needed to do was to receive him as his lord and saviour and all would be given to him. I told him "you didn't do anything to deserve this...no, it's NOT fair. And you are right."
Today in worship, that is the hymn we sang. It has stuck with me. How can it be that I should gain?
I usually don't sing the doxology with the congregation. I am always filled with thankfulness and awe and surprise and I simply can not open my mouth. Week after week, I thank the Lord for giving me fresh experience during Sunday worship services. It continues to bring life to me even after 36 years.
On a quiet Sunday morning like today, I am remembering all of you who are worshipping him at different places all over the world. Indeed He is worthy.
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Your love for the Lord is still so fresh and real. Very moving!
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